I cried over you
Thought I would die over you
Swore I wouldn’t live if you were ever with someone else
But through you I see the real me
What great things heartache can push me to be
I rebelled against my self predicted future
I got over you
Spent many a night crying
Spent many a day amazed
That you could treat me this way
After all the sacrifices we’ve made
Once played the fool and was the leading role
But you play it the best so do what you do
I’m tired of all the pain
So with it I say to hell with you
God made me a woman so I deserve more
Maybe it’s not your place to realize
In God’s eyes, I’m a queen
And anything less than that is what I dare not to be
Be thankful that I could muster the ability to love you
Because not just any woman would have the nerve
Not every woman has my forgiving nature, my limitless limits, my love for love
I laid down my self respect and walked over it to reach you
I swam through the murky waters of self betrayal and drowned in its very depths of guilt
But somewhere I grabbed my life line, they call it courage and pulled myself out
I took all the emotions I had within and built a boat and rode high on the waves
I got over you
It didn’t happen overnight, that’s for sure
It took many restless nights
Nights of giving up on the possibility that you would ever call
In those times of depression, I began to build
I hammered while I listened to your lies
I screwed while I caught you in the wrong time after time after time
I put down my tools a time or two, thinking that maybe my work began to annoy you
But I never kept them far
So what do you think of that?
Never thought I would have the strength to walk away
You thought you had me wrapped around your finger,
That I was so pathetic that you could convince me that I couldn’t live without you
You had me there for a while, I admit at once this was the truth
But all chapters to every story must end, otherwise no new beginnings could ever surface
This charade can not continue, even you know that
So I say no more
But I must thank you
Because without you there would be no “woman”
No backbone to your entire existence
No blessing to your miserable thing you call a life
You will go on knowing that you lost the best thing you ever had
And I will go on knowing that I’ve gained the best thing that could ever happen to anyone
And that was myself
As I close I say goodbye to my former being
And say good day to a new
I am woman of color, class and character
With the capacity to do the impossible, the unattainable the unachievable
And that was getting over you… |
