Defeat & Doubt Sometimes I sit here.... I sit here and stare,
blankly into the muted view in front of me.
My mind turning numb as confusion is amplified
like background noise that I can't tune out of my head.
I wonder, I wallow, I wish... my mind keeps spinning the same melody.
If my life's not a failure... when do I start winning?
The struggle of this taunting... clouds my thoughts and bruises my will.
It's hard to be content and to sit still in a place of despair and defeat.
The Liar is cunning and thrives on self doubt.
He is the master at driving confidence out from the soul.
He is the stealer of hope, and the weight of a heavy load.
He is the author of confusion and the master of deception.
I will never invite him in... to do so is to forfeit the game
and face eternity with no end to the pain for this mortal core. Help & Hope I seek His council, I seek His embrace,
I seek the 'light' of my Savior's face.
His radiance fills my tired eyes with the light of hope.
His arms give my body rest as He carries me.
At His table I have a new place to sit.
He is my everlasting provider, in Him I will abide.
The peace and purity of who He is quiets my heart and mind.
The road of life before me is still uncertain
and distant if I go it alone.
I dare not take a chance if I long to go safely home.
I'll embrace the Holy Spirit that he may light my way.
Preparing me to endure the obstacles along the way
or helping me lift the burdens from my path that I will not stray.
I'll just keep stepping, one step after another,
and another... keep stepping.
I must resign to the promises of worldly rewards
and the promises of man, since both man and this world will fail me
but my Heavenly Father has prepared a place for me just as He promised.
By the blood shed on Calvary, my heart is washed and ready to one day hear,
"Come home My child, your eternity is ready." |
